Identity.

First of all, I'm back.

And back for good. Life caught up to me, and I couldn't blog as often as I had wanted to.

Now, I named this post Identity, because I have been pondering exactly that. Who am I?

Many times, we as humans tend to define ourselves using our occupation or our interests. It's hard for me to remember that being a worship leader is not who I am, it is what I do. A sermon by my youth pastor got me thinking. Who, exactly, am I? As he went on, he explained to us that we find our true identity in Jesus Christ. We are loved. 

I am loved.

Sometimes it feels like when push comes to shove, there isn't going to be anyone on your side; that this relationship between you and the people you care about is only temporary. 

You know what, I'm going to go off topic for a second and talk about that.

Am I the only one who feels like through all the facades, and smiles, and the "anytime, I'll be there" is all fake? Is it too much to ask for genuine love from another person outside of your family? Like, we all have friends. Friends we talk to all the time, and friends we don't. Friends we trust with more important things, and friends we don't. I wish there was some way to look at someone, and know if he/she was someone you could trust. Someone you could grow, and laugh, and learn with. Not someone who would be like that at first, but walk away when you needed them the most. Now, I know we are all human. I'm probably not the best friend to the people I talk to, and I try to be there when they need me the most. But...

There's a quote that basically says that the measure of a friend is loyalty to the end.

Is that too much to ask?

Do you see these things in me? 

If in hard times,  will you trust me? 

Will  you see me for who I am or as others say I am?